When people grow up, the world change to smaller and smaller. The friends you can talk to become lesser and common topic become narrower because people start to develop different view on the issues while growing up. 

One year ago, I thought that we are a bunch of friends who know each other very well and have common view on the same issue. But after one year, many things happened, I have changed, changed to another me who see thing very different from previous. People also changed because thing might fade with time. 

Now I only hope that we can continue stay together without any other arguments. I don’t have the hope that we can be as good as previously, like chat everything as previously or hang out overnight with endless topic. But I just hope that we can peacefully be normal friends and stay in the house with no argument.  

Probably all these above is because of I think too much but…I also not sure what do they think… cheers, everything will be okay ! 🙂

半夜就会想很多。

无奈啊，干嘛善意的提醒和建议结果听到别人的耳里变成一句别人觉得我表达讨厌的一句话…无言了，真的觉得不懂要怎样跟他相处了，讲什么觉得从心里发出来的话都觉得是他觉得不想听的== 

有时真的觉得听到这句“每个人都有每个人的方法”就显掉，真的这么不想听自己不想听的话，大不了，下次就不说咯。其实，我也只有对自己觉得亲的人才会这样子说那些话。既然这么不喜欢听，那还不如就分开一点，划清一点界线吧。[普通朋友|亲密朋友] 就分开这个界限吧。

越来越觉得这班朋友跟自己搭不上了 唉 友谊如果真的这么坚固，如果是维持一心的，那就既来之则安之吧。是你的最后也是你的，不是你的即使维持得再好也不会是你的。

一大清早又遇到那个每天早上来咖啡店跟人讨两块钱买水的auntie，一听他装可怜的声音就不想理他了。吃完早餐后走去巴士站的路上，又看到了他在旁边坐着抽烟，我看着他抽那根烟，他看着我不爽的眼神。真的觉得在这个社会有些人真的让人看了好恶心，表里不一。

一下子装得可怜兮兮到处问人有没有钱给他买水，一下子又可以抽着一包就可以买三个水的烟。lab也有人一下子捧着笑脸对senior，一下子变脸捧着拽到半死的脸对着别人。有必要吗？多一个朋友好过多一个敌人，别觉得别人对你没什么用处就这样对着别人 ，真的是看到觉得太恶心了。

Going to start my work on literature review after writing this post.

I believe that although I cannot felt exactly the presence of god..he is with me everyday everytime i am doing work. The study of PhD work is really not easy, it make me felt like i am working alone with no partner can help me on the project. Sometime, working alone is lonely and helpless. But I here declare that with god nothing is impossible.

So all the best to the remaining three years!! all the best to my QEs!! all the best to my everything.

Dear Lord Jesus, i give thank to everything that u have gifted me so far, i pray that you can guide me, lead me, and show me you path to me. In Jesus’s name, Amen.

原来当人发现没有地方给他发泄的时候，就会选择到一个没有人的地方写出来，给自己看。

昨天开始真的深深感慨，一段友情如果能维持下去，不是单靠单方面的。如果对方并没有想要把你留在生命当中的意思，那么紧紧地抓住对方只是让自己过不去。或许我就是太重视关系了吧，想太多，每天想把自己认为珍惜的朋友留着，每天想着制造一些回忆让友情更坚固，每天想约出来让友情不会慢慢消掉。

现在回想过去，为什么自己这么积极地在group里面这么积极讲话，这么积极拉人，这么积极约出来，觉得自己就是只是太看重。真正想跟你不断维持下去的人，是会主动也找你的，而不是天天都是其中一方在主动。

所以，我决定了：从今天起，慢慢的把那个group渐渐忽略。关心你的人会自然而然关心你的。如果没有很紧的打结在中间的关系，即使一方不断的走向另一方，也是白费功夫，徒劳无功。

我不要再把自己弄的这么累了。。。

people come people go….